Awkwardness: n 1: unskillfulness resulting from a lack of training 2: the carriage of someone whose movements and posture are ungainly or inelegant 3: Not graceful; ungainly
LOL…I am an awkward person. Always have been and don’t really think that’ll change much in the future. I’m pretty ok with my awkwardness…but today a number of situations have thrown that awkwardness back into my face. Its all mostly in my head and I need to get over it…but how do you change the way you have seen yourself for your whole life?
I don’t think I really want to though…(I mean, the blessings that occurred today after the fact would not have if I wasn’t who(or how) I am, right?). Okay, go with me here…
Last night as I “tried” to prepare for my 2nd attempt at doing the devotions at Area Command (long story), I picked up that amazing book I gushed about for weeks a while back (The Vision and the Vow). If you want inspiration, read it! Anyway….I found this part that really made me relook at God and His relationship with Jesus. Here goes it:
“When Jesus was baptized, the heavens opened, and His Father spoke, saying, ‘This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased.’ What an incredible moment! But let us remember that, at this point, He hadn’t actually done anything publicly. His open ministry hadn’t begun. For thirty years, He had simply lived a normal life in a nowhere town with quiet integrity, growing ‘in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men’ (Luke 2:52). The affirmation of the Father had come to Him before His ministry ever began.”
These two thoughts may not fit to you, but they do to me. God loved and affirmed Jesus even before He really was known as the Prince of Peace and Savior of mankind. God loved him because he was His Son…pure and simple.
God loves me because I’m me….even in the midst of my fumbling, nervous giggling, sad attempts at speaking professionally…He loves me. Such an undeserving love, but so welcomed!
Kim is loved…Peace!