There are moments when life feels so heavy and burdensome, and we realize we’ve been trying to carry everything on our own. We do not often notice life’s weight until it’s too much to bear. Then the question comes, “why have I been trying to carry it?”

I had a moment like this last evening. One of my best friends is going through the final days of a parent’s life, and even though the cancer battle has endured for ten years, it is still hard to realize the end is near. The thoughts and prayers churned…

Sadness for the family, the knowing of the depth of loss that will soon be theirs, the prayers upon prayers for a peaceful passing, the connecting with the losses that have come before, and the desire to do more and be more for others than you can actually be.

I drove home as the night sky overwhelmed… and I cried. Cried through all of the things and the ideas of the things to come.

And then I heard this beautiful, vulnerable song, Hold On To Me, from Lauren Daigle, and the tears came from gratitude… from being reminded that things of this life are not mine to carry.

I only need ask to be held.

When the best of me is barely breathing
When I’m not somebody I believe in
Hold on to me

When I miss the light the night has stolen
When I’m slamming all the doors You’ve opened
Hold on to me,
hold on to me

Hold on to me when it’s too dark to see You
Hold on to me when I have reached the end
Hold on to me when I forget I need You
When I let go, hold me again

When I don’t feel like I’m worth defending
When I’m tired of all the pretending
Hold on to me

When I start to break in desperation
Underneath the weight of expectations
Hold on to me,
hold on to me

I could rest here in Your arms forever
‘Cause I know nobody could love me better
So hold on to me, hold on to me

“Hold On To Me” by Lauren Daigle

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Watch the amazing version live from The Voice in May 2021 – https://youtu.be/WaGoIhSlWUQ