Sometimes I feel I’m pulled in so many wrong directions
sometimes I feel the world seducing my affections
it’s not that I don’t know the way
it’s just a heart that’s prone to stray
but with my weaknesses admitted
You will keep all that I’ve committed
so I commit my heart to You
my First Love
First Love, First Love
my soul longs after You
First Love, my first Love
I want my heart to stay so true
Because You first loved me
Jesus You will always be
You will always be
My First Love
It’s taken me some time to try to comprehend
a love that doesn’t change – a love without an end
a love that keeps forgiving
a love of sacrifice and giving
I delight myself in You 
My First Love
If I ever lack endurance
I remember Your assurance
that Your only banner over me is love
if my heart begins to waiver
woo me back, my loving Savior
woo me back till I return to my First Love
First Love by Petra 
Going way back to the oldies with this one!  I sang this in the solo 
competition one year back in the day when we used to have those 
at FMI. Man, I knew the words were nice and meant something to 
me then.  But like 13 years later, this song hits me hard.  
               I’m lucky to have grown up in a Christian home – an Army 
home at that – and so, was not surrounded my negative influences. 
Obviously I still had school and other activities that I did outside of 
church that could have swayed me…but, honestly, even back in 
elementary school, the kids knew there was something different about 
me.  I didn’t really understand what it was either, but it’s been amazing 
to grow up in the knowledge of God’s love and power, and to see how 
my relationship has grown closer and more personal as the years have 
gone by.  
               I already know what it is like to be in a long-term relationship 
with somebody. J Sometimes it gets hard with all the societal influences 
on us (especially us twentysomethings) – especially around Feb. 14th
but I stand firm in the knowledge that “God’s banner over me is Love” 
(as the old Sunday School song goes).
Disclaimer: All this talk may sound like I’m all fine in my status as of late, but honestly 
yesterday – especially last night for some weird reason – was a struggle for me. 
Heather had stopped by to get the Grammys video I taped for her and gave a 
reassurance that we’ve gotten through another Valentine’s Day.  Yes, it was great to 
hear cause it was true…but then I started thinking (bad idea sometimes, BTW), 
“How many more Valentine’s Days to I have to ‘get though’?”  I write this in sincerity 
and in hope that I can help someone else see that we are enveloped and comforted 
in the love Jesus lived out and God sent down for us.
–Sorry about how long this is…Xanga was being dumb while I tried to post this.  

4 Comments Add yours

  1. JenMusic says:

    Thought about you on V-Day. It was one of the best I’ve ever had – we were busy on a tour all day, and no one celebrates Valentine’s Day out here. 🙂 But I did miss you and doing something wacky.
    Got you something cool for Christmas in July. If you don’t like it, too bad, you still have to tell me how much it is your favorite thing ever!


  2. Anonymous says:

    Missed you last night!


  3. Anonymous says:

    I thought this was a great entry Kim. You will not be alone. I love you !


  4. RageBeFire says:

    Kim, you make my feet tap. You are a breath of fresh-air. What the French call a certain…I don’t know what.
    Hold on.
    Have you ever heard anybody say somebody is a “breath of stale air”? Or a “breath of polluted air”? Maybe I should start using those expressions…
    “I saw Tom and Mary today. They really get on my nerves. Did you know Tom is a smoker? That guy is a breath of polluted air!”


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